I Did Not Buy a Ticket

0:00 Welcome [screaming] to the stream.

0:03 Hey, one of my mods suggested we play a game.

0:06 It's It's been a while since I've just ripped

0:07 a game that I I I know literally nothing about,

0:10 but [music] the reviews seem good.

0:11 And of course, there was a Salit review.

0:13 Now, I don't know that that most of you guys might know who Salit is.

0:16 You might not know, but Sal is the one of the biggest Brazilian streamers.

0:19 And every single indie game that I consider playing, he has reviewed.

0:23 I don't know how it happens.

0:24 He's in [music] the comment section.

0:25 He's he's written a review.

0:27 It's ridiculous.

0:28 I also trust Selid a lot.

0:29 He always also Sel is so sweet.

0:30 He'll send me suggestions.

0:32 He didn't tell me to play this one,

0:33 but I saw his review and he reviewed it positively.

0:35 It's a psychological horror visual novel.

0:37 Uh it's called I did not buy this ticket.

0:39 Ladies and gentlemen, let's jump into it, shall we?

0:41 We f again.

0:43 Oh, what?

0:44 5 minutes later.

0:45 All right.

0:46 Well, anyway, we're back.

0:47 Hopefully, we stay back.

0:48 Welcome to the game.

0:49 I did not buy this ticket.

0:51 A psychological horror visual novel game with I

0:54 believe the main theme uh is grief.

0:56 A game by Thiago Recre.

0:59 I don't know how to pronounce that.

1:00 I'm apologize.

1:01 An art is by Liio Ninoa.

1:04 I think that was close.

1:05 But the main reason why I was kind of like,

1:06 "Yeah, I'm down." Is that the visuals looked super interesting.

1:09 So, let's just jump into it, shall we?

1:14 Okay.

1:14 Weep for the dead.

1:16 Okay.

1:16 [laughter] I have to pay respects.

1:18 The tears well up in my eyes, distorting my vision.

1:22 They come easily.

1:23 Fat salty continuous tears.

1:26 I'm I'm being insulted.

1:27 We effed again.

1:29 Oh, f.

1:29 Okay.

1:30 I actually thought the stream died.

1:32 [laughter] God damn it.

1:33 God damn it.

1:34 Yo, you okay?

1:35 Cuz I said f to pay respect.

1:36 Of course.

1:36 Of course.

1:37 Okay.

1:38 As if I had known.

1:39 The man lying in the coffin before me.

1:43 This is the first time I'd ever laid eyes on him.

1:45 The tears run down my cheeks.

1:46 They itch, but I resist the urge to rub my face.

1:50 I know it's more dramatic to let them [music] flow.

1:52 complete control.

1:54 I always am.

1:56 Interesting.

1:57 The deceased son.

1:58 Hey, we finished the burial.

2:01 Everyone's gone home now, so we should settle your payment for now.

2:04 That was quite the performance, I have to [music] say.

2:06 So, I'm I'm like a I'm like a hired actor to cry at this funeral.

2:09 Tell your friends about me.

2:12 You're You're joking, right?

2:13 Anyway, here.

2:14 The amount we agreed on over the phone, you seem like you want to say something.

2:19 Ah, no.

2:20 I uh well I I do actually.

2:24 It's silly [music] to try and hide it from you.

2:26 I was impressed with the realism truly.

2:29 You'd never seen my father before.

2:31 And yet you your mourning was more emotional than that of my relatives.

2:35 My brother doesn't even seem to care that he passed away.

2:37 It might just be a silly notion of mine,

2:39 but I do believe your work here nudged us to some form of reconciliation.

2:43 But I I didn't pay you to listen to my rambling, did I?

2:46 You haven't paid me yet.

2:48 Oh.

2:49 Uh yeah, of course.

2:51 Uh but before you go, let me ask you one question.

2:54 I got curious about how you got into this.

2:56 How you learned to weep so spontaneously.

2:58 All I can say is that life takes us down unexpected roads.

3:01 I don't have to answer that and I won't.

3:03 That's a little standoffish.

3:04 [music] I go with the first.

3:05 That's just another way of not answering.

3:08 You don't even know how you got here, do you?

3:11 Myself.

3:12 Well, I wanted to be an artist.

3:14 [music] And uh here I am in a suit and a tie,

3:17 wearing my daily uniform to bury my father.

3:20 Is that all?

3:22 Oh, yeah.

3:24 Of course.

3:25 Give me.

3:27 Here's the money.

3:28 Thank [music] you.

3:29 And you live well off this?

3:30 This isn't my day job.

3:32 It's more of a a hobby, I'd say.

3:34 I imagine this would take a toll on your spirit as a job.

3:38 You do have to pass the time.

3:39 Well, what do you mean?

3:43 Well, most people don't go to so many funerals in such a short amount of time.

3:48 It's an oppressive atmosphere, even if it's not your relatives.

3:51 How do you deal with that?

3:52 No one's ever asked me that.

3:53 The questions help me keep my mind off other things.

3:57 Makes sense.

4:00 Oh my god, my the phone the phone so loud.

4:02 I keep my distance professionally, [music] even with death so close by.

4:07 I believe what we bury is only a husk.

4:10 The person [music] is gone.

4:13 Uh, sorry.

4:14 I I think your cell phone is ringing.

4:16 [music] Yes, it is.

4:19 I almost managed to ignore it this time.

4:20 I don't need to look at it to know who's calling.

4:23 At least [music] it interrupted the interrogation.

4:25 Won't you get it?

4:28 Don't answer the phone.

4:29 Don't answer the phone.

4:30 Don't answer the phone.

4:31 Oh my god.

4:32 Who's calling me?

4:33 I won't answer it.

4:36 No.

4:37 I have another job scheduled.

4:39 It's far from here.

4:41 I need to go now, so I won't be late.

4:44 Of course, please.

4:46 All right.

4:46 The bush should be here already.

4:48 This is going to be a long trip.

4:50 Long enough to catch up on some sleep.

4:52 Client's questions gave me a headache.

4:55 Don't think about it.

4:57 Where's the ticket?

4:58 I should check my seat number.

5:00 What's this?

5:05 I growl.

5:06 Okay, I didn't buy this ticket.

5:09 Seat 000.

5:11 Weird.

5:12 Maybe an error in the system.

5:13 That's German, by the way.

5:15 Yeah, I can figure that one out.

5:17 Ah, the bus is here.

5:20 Oh, okay.

5:23 I like the visual presentation.

5:26 Oh, this is the bus.

5:30 That [snorts] How strange.

5:34 Looking at it makes my teeth chatter.

5:37 What is this?

5:38 Board the boss.

5:38 [music] Okay, I only have uh one option.

5:40 Board the battle bus.

5:41 [laughter] Oh, great.

5:47 Oh, wonderful.

5:48 This guy looks great.

5:49 Hello, Cyclops.

5:50 Are you here to beat me in Hades again?

5:52 Good evening, miss.

5:53 Where are we headed to on this dark night?

5:55 Uh, I did not buy a ticket for this bus.

5:57 You're late.

5:58 I'm I'm headed where the bus is headed.

6:00 H, let's say I'm headed where the bus is headed.

6:02 Where else?

6:02 Of course, we also have to consider

6:04 that the bus's destination depends on uh Oh, never mind.

6:09 I don't want to delay this trip any further.

6:12 Please take your seat.

6:13 Interesting.

6:15 Couple looking frog looking person.

6:17 We got a guy with a crown on.

6:19 Oh, wonderful.

6:20 Everyone hates me or is weird.

6:22 I don't know.

6:23 H.

6:24 All the seats are numbered 00 0.

6:26 Huh.

6:27 I can see three empty seats.

6:29 Sit at the back.

6:30 Sit at the middle.

6:31 Sit at the front.

6:34 Let's sit right in the middle.

6:35 What a hard seat.

6:37 But to be honest, I've traveled on worse.

6:40 I could get used to this.

6:47 Okay.

6:48 Interesting.

6:50 H Well, I like the visuals.

6:57 Someone Someone sat besides me.

7:00 Hello.

7:02 Um, hello.

7:05 Good evening.

7:08 Good evening.

7:10 I hate traveling alone, you know.

7:12 That's why I'd like to talk during this long trip.

7:15 And you look like someone who likes to talk.

7:19 And I [laughter] And I love to listen.

7:23 We are [clears throat] the perfect pair.

7:27 Yes.

7:27 Uh, I'd like to talk with friends, not with strangers.

7:30 No, we're not.

7:31 Want to be left alone?

7:33 Fine.

7:34 What do you want to talk about?

7:37 Oh my god.

7:39 Well, I have no idea.

7:41 I'm not a very interesting person.

7:44 So, why don't we talk [laughter] about you?

7:47 This traveling alone thing isn't new to you.

7:50 [laughter] I can see it in your face.

7:53 Oh my god, this guy's so weird.

7:56 What about yourself?

7:58 Oh, no.

7:58 Let's not talk about me.

8:00 I'd rather hear other people's stories.

8:02 You don't really have a place to go.

8:05 Huh?

8:08 What do What do you mean?

8:10 I feel no urgency in you.

8:13 I mean, sure, you want to go somewhere.

8:18 Only you don't need to.

8:21 It feels different.

8:22 I feel there's an interesting story there.

8:24 Oh god, this guy is so creepy.

8:27 Oh god, stop getting closer to me.

8:30 Hey.

8:34 Hey.

8:37 Why don't you look at me?

8:42 We could talk better.

8:45 Oh god.

8:46 Oh god.

8:46 Oh god.

8:48 Is there something about my face that bothers you or something?

8:55 In my words, hey.

8:59 Oh god.

8:59 Oh god.

9:00 His eye is like appearing there.

9:02 Hit the guy.

9:02 Leave me alone.

9:03 Your face disgusts me.

9:04 Hit the guy.

9:05 Leave me alone.

9:09 I need to get out of here.

9:14 What the hell was that?

9:18 I don't even remember how I got here.

9:21 Did I panic?

9:22 It's pass.

9:23 Why am I here?

9:31 Oh gosh, look at this face.

9:38 I don't even recognize it anymore.

9:39 I'm not supposed to be here.

9:41 Not supposed to be seeing this.

9:43 Just want to reach my next job and not think about any of this anymore.

9:46 Okay, back on the bus.

9:47 It's empty.

9:49 Everyone got off.

9:51 Bus station.

9:53 Ow.

9:53 [clears throat] How did we get here?

9:55 Good morning, miss.

9:57 I believe I managed to compensate for our tardiness after all.

10:01 This trip was supposed to last all night.

10:02 How did you do this?

10:03 There's a strange person pestering me.

10:06 Feel sick.

10:09 I apologize, miss.

10:10 This line picks up all sorts of strangers.

10:13 It seems we attract people of a certain quality, you know.

10:17 Oh, no.

10:18 My phone's ringing again.

10:19 No.

10:20 Oh, are you going to answer that, miss?

10:24 I don't think I will answer.

10:25 No, I I'm in a hurry.

10:27 Well, excuse me, miss.

10:28 Just one more thing.

10:29 The ticket, please.

10:31 The the what?

10:33 The ticket?

10:35 Oh, I It's still with me.

10:37 Uh, here.

10:39 This is usually handed to the conductor, but I can take it too in certain cases.

10:44 Look, you seem nice.

10:46 Let me give you some advice.

10:47 When it's time to hand over the ticket here on this bus,

10:50 always hand over the ticket.

10:52 What else would I hand over?

10:53 Hand over the ticket?

10:54 Just what else would I hand over?

10:56 You wouldn't believe this sort of things people leave behind here.

11:00 Just remember to hand over the ticket and everything will be just fine.

11:04 Look, I I got to go.

11:06 Thanks for driving.

11:07 See you.

11:07 All right.

11:08 Well, then interesting.

11:09 Well, I wonder what people would hand over.

11:11 Oh, it's our next job.

11:12 Lament for the departed.

11:13 The bizarre trip keeps disturbing my thoughts.

11:16 I try to focus on work I was hired for.

11:18 Tears flow.

11:19 I I weep for a person I've never seen before.

11:22 Business as usual.

11:28 This person.

11:29 My god, his eye looks dashing.

11:31 [music] Well, that's it.

11:33 It's done.

11:33 He's buried and I'll never see him again.

11:35 Are you all right?

11:37 You seem a little under the weather.

11:38 I went through a strange experience on my way here.

11:42 Oh, on the way here, I met an inconvenient person on the bus.

11:48 Some guy who kept sliding towards me.

11:50 How awful.

11:51 Oh, I'm sorry you had to go through that.

11:53 It's fine.

11:53 I'm the one who's here to feel [music] for others.

11:56 But, uh, well, um, this is still a funeral, isn't it?

11:59 This is my first funeral.

12:01 Can you believe it?

12:02 My grandparents died when I was very young, so I remember nothing.

12:04 Thought I'd feel different knowing I'll never see him again and all.

12:08 Sorry I didn't hire you to listen to me.

12:10 We're united by loss, are we not?

12:13 Seems fair.

12:13 [music] I will um deal with this on my own.

12:16 Uh sorry I have to pay you.

12:18 The performance was quite something.

12:19 I have to say better than I expected.

12:22 Thanks.

12:23 I'm I'm curious.

12:24 You made a long trip to get here, didn't you?

12:27 Is it all worth it?

12:28 Sometimes I don't do this for the money.

12:30 That's what I figured.

12:31 I did the math.

12:32 the tickets to the time spent on the road.

12:34 I have insomnia.

12:35 The nights [music] on the bus help me sleep.

12:36 I'd never have guessed it.

12:38 So, this professional morning gig covers your travel expenses.

12:42 I don't answer.

12:42 I let him believe his own hypo hypothesis.

12:46 I haven't slept much myself.

12:48 I think I'm good at hiding it,

12:49 but you know, I'm shattered in a million pieces inside.

12:52 You must have seen this a lot.

12:54 How morning changes people.

12:56 I'm very cold towards everyone.

12:57 I'm sorry, but I really have to go.

12:59 When we scheduled everything,

13:00 you said you'd be coming in from another funeral, right?

13:03 What now?

13:03 One more.

13:05 No, I'm taking a [music] break.

13:07 So, I was lucky to get this last one this season in a way.

13:13 All this traveling must get tiresome.

13:15 Ask about [music] the iigen grow line.

13:18 I have you ever heard about a certain bus company?

13:23 I I caught one of the buses to get here.

13:25 The Ien grow line.

13:27 Hm.

13:27 The the name rings a bell.

13:30 I I can't quite remember.

13:31 I went on some bus rides to sell some sort of the old man's real estate.

13:34 I remember paying attention to the upholstery, some of the travelers faces.

13:38 At least that's what I recall.

13:40 The last few days have not been kind.

13:42 That's understandable.

13:44 Thank you.

13:44 Anyway, speaking of which, it's time for me to go.

13:48 I'm sorry for your loss.

13:49 Thank you.

13:49 Uh have a good trip back.

13:51 What a what an interesting game so far.

13:54 Uh, I wonder how my character is dealing with their own grief

13:56 and uh how they're avoiding it all and going to these funerals.

13:59 Maybe they're balding.

14:01 Yeah, dude.

14:02 It's a story.

14:02 It's a story about dealing with grief of early onset male pattern baldness.

14:07 I ride an ordinary bus home.

14:08 A normal boring trip back home.

14:11 I sleep the whole way.

14:12 When I wake up, that strange bus seems like nothing more than a nightmare.

14:16 A week goes by.

14:19 Don't answer the phone.

14:20 Two weeks go by.

14:22 The phone is ringing again.

14:25 Don't answer.

14:26 Life seems to return to normal.

14:30 Okay.

14:31 Oh, it's a difficult choice knowing which one to pick.

14:34 I'll go with the bottom one.

14:35 As I settle back into my routine, certain thoughts creep back.

14:40 With every vibration of the cell phone, the insomnia returns.

14:44 I look for new gigs.

14:46 I may not like to admit it, but the service helps pay the bills.

14:50 The lack of sleep doesn't make the others aspects of my life any easier.

14:54 I contact the son of a man called Ivanildo.

14:57 Alves.

14:57 Iano alves.

14:59 Sorry, I'm really bad at like pronouncing names.

15:01 I contact the son of a man called Iendo Alves.

15:03 Oh my god, I can't even pronounce it correct.

15:05 He liked to spend hours rowing a boat on a small lake near this town.

15:08 He left his two sons, two daughters, some grandchildren.

15:12 He was 62 years old, a retired bus driver.

15:16 Oh[ __] He had a sudden heart attack.

15:18 That little boat became his coffin.

15:20 I bought a ticket on a regular bus.

15:22 One with reclining seats.

15:23 Oh[ __] The Argan Gal bus line must be him.

15:26 His line.

15:27 The passing of Dave's days have left that last

15:29 trip more surreal than ever in my memory.

15:32 I know that is a bit odd of a language.

15:34 A dream formed by a poor night of sleep in an uncomfortable seat.

15:38 Still, this time I made sure to check the bus company's name on the ticket.

15:43 Comet lines.

15:45 Normal.

15:46 No surprises.

15:47 What is this like kind of bus stop looking thing?

15:48 It looks so unusual.

15:50 H damn it.

15:52 I forgot the deceased dossier at home.

15:54 I wanted to study it during the trip.

15:56 Can I remember all the information?

15:58 Of course you can.

16:00 Uh his name was I remember this.

16:03 I read it like four times.

16:04 His name was Ivan Ivanildo Alves.

16:07 What was his profession?

16:08 Well, by he gosh, he was a retired bus driver and he enjoyed rowing.

16:13 I do.

16:14 I got an achievement.

16:15 You do pay attention.

16:16 I do.

16:16 I think I managed to remember the most important points.

16:19 I'd better write it all down before I forget.

16:21 I have a pen and paper in my purse.

16:23 What's this?

16:26 No.

16:27 The I can grow.

16:29 Ow.

16:30 I bought a ticket for another bus line.

16:32 I remember it well.

16:33 It was called It was called uh What?

16:39 It It was the Comet Line.

16:41 __] What?

16:41 It's none of these.

16:42 Uh uh.

16:46 Wait, am I just whichever one I picked?

16:48 Let's just go Hik.

16:50 No, that's not right.

16:52 [music] Hi is a comet.

16:57 Oh my god, I didn't know that.

17:03 I didn't know.

17:04 I don't know my astronomy.

17:05 Well, this isn't possible.

17:06 I don't want to get in that thing, but I have no choice.

17:11 Oh, the bus driver again.

17:12 Hey, you traveled with us some time ago, didn't you, miss?

17:16 I hope my services will be more to your liking this time around.

17:19 Where did this damn bus come from?

17:21 Oh, our line has been inactive for many years.

17:24 I'm surprised more people don't know about us.

17:27 Only to tell you the truth, not all people require our services.

17:31 Oh, interesting.

17:31 So, maybe a vehicle for grief, literally and metaphorically.

17:34 What do you mean by that?

17:36 Nothing more than I said.

17:38 We offer a service.

17:39 Those who need it make use of it.

17:41 I believe our potential clientele is rather limited.

17:45 Speaking of which, I need to get back to work.

17:47 Could you please take your seat?

17:48 That's enough.

17:49 I'm leaving.

17:50 Will the lady allow me one last comment?

17:52 Perhaps you're asking the wrong questions.

17:54 Maybe it isn't our work you should be questioning.

17:58 I see many people entering and leaving this bus every day,

18:02 but not all reach their destination.

18:04 You are a few steps away from your seat.

18:07 Your ticket is in your hand.

18:08 What a waste to throw it away, don't you think?

18:10 Indeed.

18:11 Even if I changed buses, I'd miss the funeral.

18:14 That's not the point, though, is it?

18:15 You're right.

18:15 I'm going in.

18:17 Great.

18:18 Let's get settled.

18:20 All right.

18:20 Sit at the back.

18:21 Sit at the middle.

18:21 We do the middle first.

18:22 Let's do the front.

18:23 Why not?

18:23 Let's go make some friends.

18:24 What a tight seat.

18:25 It's already hard to keep my eyes open.

18:30 [music] All right.

18:35 What was that?

18:36 What the[ __] was that?

18:38 Some kind of whisper.

18:49 Huh?

18:49 It seems like it's coming from the seat behind me.

18:55 Sorry.

18:55 Let me know.

18:57 I could make too much noise.

18:59 Okay.

19:00 I don't want to bother you.

19:01 You're not bothering me.

19:06 Great.

19:05 Yes.

19:07 Good.

19:09 Sorry.

19:11 Your voice.

19:12 It sounds so much like my daughter's.

19:16 I haven't seen my daughter in years.

19:19 H interesting.

19:20 So, the last guy was looking for a friend.

19:22 This person is their daughter.

19:23 So, perhaps their do they're mourning their daughter in some sense.

19:26 And everyone on this bus is mourning something.

19:28 I'm sorry, but I can't be your daughter.

19:32 No, I guess not.

19:34 Still, your voice is too much like my daughter's.

19:40 And so is your hair.

19:43 And you're sure my voice doesn't remind you of anything?

19:47 Oh[ __] mom.

19:48 Her voice.

19:50 It can't be.

19:52 It reminds me of It reminds you of your mother's voice, doesn't it?

19:59 From the last time I spoke to her.

20:01 It can't be.

20:01 It's impossible.

20:02 What do you want from me?

20:04 The last time I spoke to her.

20:08 Yes, that's right.

20:10 My voice had changed.

20:13 It was more broken.

20:16 Do you remember?

20:18 It would be good if we could talk.

20:20 Don't you think to remember a bit of the life we had before I left?

20:27 My impulse is to run, to jump through the window,

20:30 even as the bus speeds down the highway.

20:32 But something keeps me stuck to the seat.

20:34 A part of me resists the impulse to run.

20:39 Daughter, I know.

20:41 I know.

20:42 Our last conversation didn't go very well.

20:45 Didn't go very well.

20:46 Is that how you classify expulsing your daughter from your own deathbed?

20:50 Screaming.

20:52 I I just reacted to what you said that day.

20:59 You wanted to deny me the right to die.

21:03 You ran away from me.

21:04 [music] Did I?

21:07 Does it matter now?

21:10 [music] I'm back,

21:14 daughter.

21:13 I know you recognize my voice.

21:17 I've returned to give you another chance.

21:22 How could it be?

21:24 How is this possible?

21:26 I won't give you any chances to an impossibility.

21:29 Come again, you are giving me another chance.

21:32 How could it be?

21:32 How is this possible?

21:35 I don't know it myself.

21:37 I searched for [music] you for so long.

21:42 This bus's lights, they shine brightly [music] in the darkness.

21:48 I felt I'd find one of you here.

21:51 I spent a lot of time thinking about what to say,

21:55 especially considering how we said goodbye.

21:58 My mom is dead.

21:59 She can't be aboard any bus.

22:03 You never were one to let opportunities pass you, Matthew.

22:08 You never hid your real thoughts from me.

22:12 Why not take the chance, daughter?

22:14 Cuz my mother died.

22:15 You can't be her.

22:16 Cuz we've already heard each other enough for one [music] life.

22:21 For one life?

22:21 Yes.

22:23 [music] But this is a new life.

22:26 Do you understand that?

22:29 I returned so we could leave our differences in the past.

22:34 From now on, we'll tread a new path.

22:36 A new path?

22:37 Is that possible?

22:38 No.

22:39 There aren't any new paths for us.

22:40 A new path.

22:41 Is that possible?

22:42 [music] If I could get here.

22:45 Of course, it's possible.

22:48 You just have [music] to want it, daughter.

22:50 Maybe I do want this on some level.

22:55 Yes.

22:55 Finally, I can give you something.

22:58 It's strange to think how far we had to go to be able to do it.

23:04 What now?

23:06 Now we have much to talk about.

23:09 This dark and dirty bus is no place for this.

23:13 We'll have our family reunion yet.

23:16 You'll know the right moment.

23:19 Oh, damn.

23:20 Uh, are you still there?

23:25 Nothing.

23:26 Not even a whisper.

23:27 I can't stop trembling.

23:29 I'm nauseated.

23:33 Damn.

23:33 Interesting.

23:34 So I I mean it must be a vehicle

23:36 to reconcile with the grief that I have for my life

23:40 and this traveling job that I do is just

23:43 me avoiding my uh my grief or in some capacity.

23:46 I'd already imagined how the last conversation between

23:48 the two of us could be so different.

23:51 I did that many [music] times, but I could never picture a conclusion

23:56 to any of those imaginary talks until today.

24:03 Oh wow.

24:04 Oh damn.

24:05 It's changing again.

24:06 It is very different.

24:07 All her life [music] she wanted me to change.

24:10 I don't think this is what she had in mind.

24:12 [music] I don't think this is what she had in mind.

24:14 That is a good point.

24:15 It is easier to to mourn for strangers than it is for our loved ones at times.

24:21 You know, we often have very complicated relationships

24:23 with uh with loved ones and family members.

24:26 Uh and it's it sometimes can be a complicated thing to mourn them.

24:28 Grief is such a a tricky thing.

24:30 Such a bastard of an emotion, but a very human one.

24:33 [laughter] And the bus is empty once more.

24:37 No trace of passengers.

24:38 Good morning, miss.

24:40 I'll haz you to guess that you didn't regret joining us for another trip.

24:43 Didn't regret might be a stretch.

24:45 I might have something to gain here.

24:47 Of course, m you'll get there to destination in time.

24:51 It's what we promise to tell all our passengers.

24:54 Well, at least when we can get them to the bus station.

24:58 The ones who make it here are content.

25:00 The ones who make it here are content.

25:02 H.

25:02 Do you mean to say that some people don't reach the bus station?

25:05 I don't like to gossip, miss.

25:07 In fact, I need to stop preparing for the next trip or I'll be late.

25:11 I'm sure we'll provide even better service on your next trip.

25:14 You're pretty confident that I'll keep traveling with you guys.

25:17 I am.

25:18 You still haven't reached your destination yet, miss.

25:21 Until next time, another funeral for us to attend.

25:24 The body in the casket.

25:26 For the first time, it irks me, but I cannot.

25:30 I'm unable to feel something for it.

25:32 I do not know it.

25:33 I need to focus.

25:34 I need to finish the job.

25:36 The bus and the mirror and the last night's encounter all return to my mind.

25:40 No, I'm here on duty, fulfilling a contract, nothing more.

25:46 Suddenly, it becomes a lot harder to mourn

25:48 for the body now that I've reconciled with my own grief.

25:51 I am a professional.

25:52 I've regained my composure.

25:54 Nobody notices.

25:58 Oh, my phone's ringing.

25:59 I can't focus with that.

26:00 Do not answer.

26:03 The work helps me to hide once more.

26:08 Uh, what voice should I give this guy?

26:10 So, that's how it ends.

26:13 That's how it ends.

26:15 Once they're buried, it's over.

26:17 Uh, I meant your job.

26:19 Scottish.

26:19 Okay.

26:20 Yeah, I like that.

26:20 Scottish.

26:21 Oh, yeah.

26:23 That's [music] it.

26:24 Are you okay?

26:25 I seem a little out of it.

26:27 It's so bad that he noticed it.

26:30 Damn it.

26:30 Get it off my chest.

26:31 Do I really want that?

26:32 Sure.

26:32 I should be the one supporting my clients,

26:34 even if that's not strictly what they hired me for.

26:36 But he's making the offer.

26:38 I haven't talked to anyone in a long time.

26:41 And those people people in the bus don't count.

26:44 Bottling it all up been helpful.

26:45 [music] Just talk to him.

26:49 Right.

26:49 I've been dealing with um [music] some uh stuff lately.

26:54 given a good hard look in the mirror.

26:56 I think this job's finally getting to me.

26:59 Is that bad?

27:00 Be weird if it didn't get to you.

27:02 Let's uh let's change the subject.

27:04 Yeah, I should pay you.

27:05 Yeah.

27:07 Yeah.

27:08 Thanks.

27:09 Oh, before I forget, yeah, I I wrote down an address for you.

27:13 I I I know this [music] address.

27:16 Another client of yours lives there.

27:18 He's a friend of mine.

27:21 I I didn't expect this.

27:22 He needs your services again.

27:25 Something happened out of the blue.

27:26 Now I'd have to drop everything and hurry there.

27:29 He really wanted you to have you there.

27:33 I I I I didn't sleep at all last night.

27:35 I It seems like this never ends.

27:38 Oh god, he's opening up.

27:41 Can I get to this new job on time?

27:43 The right didn't give you any closure.

27:45 I need It wasn't an easy passage for us.

27:50 I thought that the funeral would help.

27:52 Then I thought the claws in the casket would put an end to it.

27:55 Then the burial and paying you.

27:59 Nothing.

28:00 I'd hoped something [music] would click inside my brain.

28:02 That's what been carrying me this last few days.

28:04 Now I'll try to find someone else to support me.

28:07 Thanks for listening to me.

28:10 Damn.

28:10 An unplanned trip.

28:12 I don't want to go to be honest.

28:14 But the client is waiting.

28:15 I can't leave him there.

28:17 Sitting with a dead person.

28:18 Didn't even buy the ticket this time.

28:20 After all, it should be arriving.

28:24 [music] Oh, damn.

28:27 Whether I wanted to or not.

28:28 All right, trauma time.

28:30 Hop aboard the trauma bus.

28:32 Ah, Mace, it's good to see you again.

28:34 I didn't buy a ticket this time.

28:36 That's not a problem.

28:37 I'm sure it is among your possessions.

28:39 Don't even have to look inside the purse to feel the paper strip there.

28:42 Present.

28:44 Do not answer.

28:45 Would you please take your seat?

28:48 I can't start the bus until you're all seated.

28:52 Oh, one last person to talk to.

28:54 Uh, well, I haven't sat at the back yet.

28:56 Oh, hello.

28:57 Oh, there's Okay, the front's gone now.

28:59 Well, I guess I messed up the middle interaction, perhaps.

29:01 Let's sit at the back.

29:02 What a tight seat.

29:03 It didn't look this uncomfortable from the corridor.

29:06 Oh, screw it.

29:08 Keeps coming.

29:10 I feel like I'm like I'm being watched.

29:13 [music] Hey,

29:18 you can't sleep here.

29:20 What?

29:21 You can't be serious.

29:22 I have no time for jokes.

29:24 We're not a hotel.

29:26 You paid for travel, not to sleep.

29:30 Whoever tries to disrespect the rules must answer to me.

29:35 I honor my job, so no sleeping.

29:38 Jesus Christ, that's a ridiculous rule.

29:41 You cannot challenge the company's rules.

29:44 There is something off here.

29:46 Do you happen to be carrying something that should not be here?

29:52 I I I I don't know.

29:53 I'm not You're mistaken.

29:54 I'm not carrying anything special.

29:59 Lies.

29:58 I can see it.

30:00 Something is off here.

30:03 I'm I'm not hiding anything.

30:04 Where is your ticket?

30:07 Or perhaps there is something else in your pocket.

30:11 I must take a closer look.

30:16 Oh my.

30:16 Oh, what the

30:20 Stop hiding.

30:25 I want to see the ticket.

30:29 Keep calm.

30:31 Breathe.

30:32 He won't let this go.

30:33 He just wants the damn ticket.

30:36 Find the ticket.

30:37 Come on.

30:39 I have other passengers to check on.

30:42 Uh, check inside the purse.

30:45 Inside my purse.

30:46 What do you have there?

30:51 What the[ __] is this?

30:53 Pepper spray.

30:54 I've never had to use this.

30:55 It's even a little stuck like some old deodorant.

30:59 Not what I'm looking for.

31:05 Oh my god.

31:06 Chill.

31:07 Check pants pockets.

31:08 in my pocket.

31:10 Be careful with that, passenger.

31:14 My god, it's just my wallet.

31:16 All the of two times three photos of people I haven't seen in years.

31:20 I think I've forgotten all their names.

31:22 Not important.

31:25 Put it away.

31:26 Spray the eye.

31:27 Spray the eye.

31:27 Look inside the coat.

31:28 Spray the eye.

31:29 Uh, look under the seat.

31:32 Could I have dropped it under the seat?

31:34 What the?

31:39 Uh oh.

31:42 No, you noticed me.

31:44 Sh.

31:46 Don't show any surprise.

31:48 Can you get rid of that psychops for me?

31:52 You see, uh, I haven't got a ticket.

31:54 Snitch on the creature.

31:55 Fool the conductor.

31:57 Let's help him out.

31:59 What's going on down there?

32:02 I I think I saw some creature scuttling about down here.

32:07 What?

32:08 I think she moved towards the front of the bus.

32:10 [music] Ah, is that so?

32:14 Thank you.

32:15 She won't get away from me this time.

32:19 It seems you can still act outside the bus as well.

32:23 Not all here are like that, you know.

32:25 It seems you can still remember what it's like to be in a situation like this.

32:29 Cornered.

32:30 Thanks.

32:30 Now that I don't have that[ __] on my heels,

32:33 it'll be a lot easier to find my stop.

32:35 So, he was after you.

32:37 Yes.

32:38 And um No, I I think you confused him.

32:41 Something about you.

32:42 I I don't know what I must go to find my stop.

32:47 My stop or my definitive place on this bus?

32:50 What I left behind to stay here.

32:52 I don't remember what's important to me anymore.

32:54 It didn't take anything of yours.

32:55 At least feel like I helped you a little.

32:57 Now I must help myself.

33:00 H interesting.

33:01 She's gone.

33:01 Scuttling under the seats.

33:03 Stops.

33:04 Conductors.

33:05 H I still have the ticket.

33:07 Does this bus charge something extra for those who board it?

33:10 I'm not waiting around for the conductor to return.

33:18 That thing under the seat.

33:19 I have a feeling it wasn't always like that.

33:23 I hope she finds her stop.

33:25 That conductor.

33:26 At least I've dealt with him.

33:28 What a[ __] terrifyer.

33:29 [music] What the[ __] This face incomplete.

33:36 Can still get by, it seems.

33:38 Ah, good morning, Mish.

33:39 Did you change the bus seats?

33:41 They seem smaller.

33:42 Ah, look at that.

33:44 It's starting to fit, isn't it?

33:46 Let's not raise our expectations.

33:48 H.

33:48 In any case, it seems our services will soon no longer be needed.

33:53 I still need to get to the funerals.

33:55 Unless Hey, answer me.

33:58 No, it's nothing.

33:59 Then we'll speak when the time is right.

34:01 Wait, before you go.

34:03 H, there's a matter we should settle, miss.

34:06 It seems you're still holding on to a ticket, miss.

34:08 Uh, your conductor's a jerk.

34:10 Freakish scar the[ __] out of me.

34:11 The conductor run off after something I didn't understand.

34:14 Really?

34:15 You shouldn't get distracted so easily.

34:18 Still, I have a male to settle with you, miss.

34:20 Due to this whole mess, the ticket wasn't delivered,

34:23 which puts me in a position of having to fulfill two positions,

34:25 [music] driver and conductor.

34:28 You want me to give you the ticket?

34:29 I'm asking that you deliver over me what you didn't give to the conductor.

34:33 I kind of don't want to give him the ticket.

34:35 I don't trust him.

34:35 Got the ticket right here.

34:36 But what's this?

34:37 There's something else here.

34:41 Where?

34:42 Where did this thing come from?

34:44 It pulses in time with my heart.

34:46 Let's hand over this thing.

34:47 Are you sure?

34:50 Yes.

34:51 So be it.

34:52 When we see each other again, we'll know where we're at.

34:54 H.

34:58 I just handed over my soul.

35:00 That's not a good idea.

35:01 [laughter] Read.

35:03 I didn't read the soul, did I?

35:04 Well, rip my soul.

35:05 All right.

35:05 [music] It said soul.

35:06 It had jumbled text.

35:08 I got the worst edic.

35:09 Okay.

35:10 Well, we could we could speed through it and come back to you afterwards.

35:12 Hey, you're late.

35:14 Pass along a clear instructions regarding the time.

35:17 My client needed me.

35:18 I'm your client now and I need your service.

35:20 Come on, hurry.

35:22 Wait, we buried your father not that long ago.

35:25 And you had another death in your family.

35:28 Yes, my my stepfather.

35:30 He was like a second father to me.

35:32 It's impossible to avoid such losses as this, I know,

35:35 but two in a row like this, it's like a reoccurring nightmare.

35:38 Even you here are part of it.

35:40 Is that really what I am to people?

35:43 When did I take on such a heavy burden for myself?

35:46 Was it when I began to run away from certain things or even before that?

35:50 I failed the capture.

35:51 Yeah, it's going to be us heading our souls over to the robot.

35:54 I have a look.

35:54 Weep for the newly departed.

35:58 The tears well up in my eyes, blurring my vision.

36:01 I squint, forcing them out.

36:04 The sun's eyes are heavy on my back, making it harder.

36:07 This wasn't the plan.

36:08 To be an emotional support for strangers.

36:10 To be an anchor.

36:12 No.

36:14 No, no.

36:23 I got flashed flashing.

36:24 Thank you for coming on such short notice.

36:26 [music] It was important to me and to him, too.

36:30 And I won't forget to pay you this time.

36:32 I added some extra to compensate [music] for the short notice.

36:35 I insist.

36:35 I don't want your money.

36:37 I don't want to be an anchor.

36:39 What?

36:40 I'm no anchor.

36:42 I'm not attached [music] to anything.

36:44 This isn't working enough.

36:46 This job's done.

36:47 This one's on the house.

36:49 Okay.

36:49 I leave before anyone says anything else to me.

36:51 I feel eyes on me like webs trying to keep me in place.

36:54 No, I recognize the texture of the asphalt beneath my feet.

36:58 I know the smell of oil and deep frying and rubber people.

37:01 Rubber people.

37:02 Rubber and people.

37:03 Rubber people.

37:04 I know the sounds of engines and pistons and ripped tickets.

37:08 All right.

37:09 And I know the distortion this [music] vehicle causes to my vision.

37:13 I have no soul now though, gentlemen.

37:15 How will I fair on this bus without a soul?

37:19 Miss, huh?

37:20 You've been standing there for a while, have I?

37:23 You don't have a ticket.

37:25 No ticket?

37:26 No problem.

37:27 Your previous payment covers this trip as well.

37:30 H go on inside.

37:31 But I have no soul now.

37:34 Oh, will I be talking to childhood Colandria?

37:39 I do wonder.

37:40 There's only one place for me to sit.

37:41 Sit at the middle.

37:42 Here we go again.

37:44 Can't get used to these seats.

37:46 Someone sat besides me.

37:49 That cheap cologne spell.

37:52 [laughter] We meet again.

37:55 Our last encounter was rather Oh, shocking, huh?

37:59 I didn't forget your promise.

38:01 Promise?

38:02 I was looking forward to my travels.

38:04 Oh, hating your story.

38:07 The story shock.

38:09 Why do I travel by bus so much?

38:11 Yeah, well, I'm all ears.

38:14 That first trip handed quite a while ago.

38:16 Happened quite a while ago.

38:18 It happened after mom's funeral.

38:20 Actually, it started when we got home.

38:22 It was a day for mourning.

38:24 But dad was furious.

38:25 Furious?

38:27 Why?

38:29 At what?

38:30 At me?

38:30 Because I I cried at the funeral.

38:32 What?

38:32 Dad was furious cuz I cried at mom's funeral.

38:35 Crying at a funeral?

38:36 That's to be expected.

38:38 No.

38:39 H is it not?

38:42 Is it not?

38:45 Is it not?

38:48 Yes.

38:49 Only I don't I don't usually talk about this.

38:52 Oh, that's even better.

38:58 Well, why would I cry?

39:01 It's It's not real.

39:02 It's never real.

39:04 Oh, elaborate.

39:06 Thought it would be appropriate for the occasion.

39:08 I I wanted to cry for I felt everyone's eyes on me.

39:11 The daughter waiting for reaction.

39:12 Our appearances that important in your world.

39:15 They're worth nothing to me.

39:19 Hey.

39:21 Hey.

39:23 Continue the story.

39:24 I never got along with my mother.

39:25 We even had an argument at her deathbed.

39:27 So dad saw my tears as pure insincerity.

39:31 Mockery.

39:33 He was beside himself.

39:34 Wait, your story lacks a character.

39:38 Antoine had a character, but there was no one else.

39:42 Hey, this this happened.

39:45 I I'm not making it up.

39:48 Hey.

39:50 Hey, [clears throat] add a character.

39:59 [groaning] My older brother was there.

40:01 My younger brother was there.

40:02 My twin brother was there.

40:04 younger.

40:04 I knew there was someone else present.

40:08 I'm a very attentive listener.

40:10 Now continue.

40:12 I I tried to defend myself, but soon I was pointing fingers as well,

40:16 accusing Dad of things I can't even recall anymore.

40:19 He was convinced our argument had landed the final blow to my mom,

40:21 even though she was in a terminal state already.

40:24 For him, I'd killed her.

40:25 What about your brother?

40:27 He didn't just watch, did he?

40:29 No.

40:31 That would be way too boring.

40:34 My my my brother remember that day.

40:40 H how did it go?

40:42 Defended me from dad.

40:44 He sided with dad.

40:46 That's right.

40:46 He didn't do a thing.

40:47 Oh, he defended me from dad.

40:49 Ah, a gentleman.

40:52 He yelled.

40:53 Dad confronted him.

40:54 They thought it was horrible.

40:57 Horrible.

40:58 Yes.

41:01 That's what makes it memorable.

41:03 I threw the door open and walked aimlessly through the night.

41:06 I think I would have been crying if I hadn't if I had the capacity.

41:09 My mind was confused like never before, but my vision was clear.

41:12 No tear to get in the way.

41:15 Our inepid protagonist please the scene.

41:20 You'd have done the same.

41:23 But this isn't my story, is it?

41:25 What I would have done matters less than a roadkill rat.

41:29 Anyway, go on.

41:31 You went out in the middle of the night aimless.

41:35 Must have arrived somewhere.

41:37 What if I say I went back home that everyone made it up and it was all fine?

41:41 Then you'd be lying.

41:42 No one will believe that.

41:44 Not even you.

41:46 That's why it doesn't work.

41:50 So, you'd better continue the story.

41:52 I don't know when I got there to the bus station.

41:55 I was lost in thought.

41:56 I bought a ticket someplace I can't remember.

41:58 I did all that without even thinking.

42:00 I sat alone and observed the hills rolling by for hours.

42:03 I hadn't slept in weeks.

42:05 My mom's situation.

42:06 I just I couldn't on that bus, though.

42:08 I slept like a baby.

42:10 When the insomnia comes knocking, well, this trick still works.

42:15 Besides, every town had someone passing away.

42:18 There's always a funeral that requires a bit more drama.

42:21 Believe it if you will.

42:23 That's right.

42:24 You spoke.

42:25 I heard and I judged.

42:28 It lacks conflict.

42:30 What?

42:30 You carry grievances from this story.

42:33 You must blame someone.

42:35 It's the rule.

42:36 The weight you carry from all this.

42:38 Yes.

42:39 Yes.

42:39 That's it.

42:40 Tell me.

42:42 Tell me who you blame.

42:43 I think it's me.

42:44 I blame myself.

42:45 I blame myself.

42:48 I didn't expect that.

42:51 It's a possibility.

42:52 Sure.

42:52 And you carry that with you.

42:55 Well, well, well.

42:56 I got what I wanted.

42:59 This little story of yours will keep me satisfied for a few more.

43:04 Miles, what about your story?

43:06 My story?

43:09 Oh.

43:10 Oh.

43:10 Oh.

43:11 Oh.

43:11 Let me move my camera.

43:12 Oh my god.

43:13 That is a one creepy guy.

43:15 Riding this wreck of a bus for miles on end.

43:18 My stories got lost on the road.

43:21 Why do you think I beg for other stories?

43:24 Maybe you should pay more attention to what you do with yours.

43:30 [clears throat] Finally, he's gone.

43:33 This conversation made me dizzy.

43:34 I need to wash my face.

43:35 I hadn't thought about that day in so long.

43:37 Or at least I tried not to.

43:38 Maybe that's why I can't fix this face.

43:40 This face?

43:41 It's starting to get on my nerves.

43:45 This is it.

43:45 I postponed things for long enough.

43:47 Mish.

43:48 Is that really you?

43:49 For the first time, I think.

43:51 In that case, nice to meet you.

43:53 Unfortunately, this first meeting is also a goodbye.

43:57 I don't think we'll see each other again so soon.

43:59 You left behind a rather unusual payment, did you not?

44:03 Now that I guess I'll have the ticket if you want it.

44:06 The ticket don't matter anymore, love.

44:08 Not after paying for your trip like that.

44:11 If you leave the bus like this, well, I've been thinking.

44:14 We have room for you here.

44:16 Who does on the bus?

44:18 Any sad stories passed through here?

44:20 I think those stories would like someone to listen to.

44:23 someone who knows how to handle the bitterness they carry.

44:26 The bus would be lighter.

44:27 I'm talking about a position that would be yours alone.

44:30 I uh I won't offer it again.

44:33 You leave with that door.

44:34 You know what?

44:34 Let's accept it cuz I'm going to I'm going

44:36 to run through another run where I don't give my soul.

44:38 Let's accept it.

44:39 Ah, very well.

44:40 Welcome to the Argan grow line.

44:42 My old line of work is useful here.

44:44 I know how to listen.

44:46 They long for my ears.

44:48 The noises of the outside world vanish amidst their stories.

44:51 And with them, so do the noises of the interior world.

44:54 I've got only one seat on the bus now, but it fits me perfectly.

44:59 Oh, it's you.

45:01 I kept thinking about that request of yours.

45:04 Finding you was a pain in the ass, but perhaps the time has come for me

45:08 to stop listening and stop talking for a bit.

45:12 I'm all ears.

45:14 Oh, wow.

45:15 That was definitely an ending.

45:16 Let's get another one.

45:17 Okay, here we go.

45:19 Hand over the ticket.

45:25 Here it is.

45:26 Thank you very much.

45:27 When we see each other again, we'll know where we're at.

45:29 Okay.

45:30 So, I'm on the loss.

45:31 Okay.

45:32 So, none of the dialogue is different so far.

45:35 [music] Left a lot of people at their destinations.

45:39 Also left a lot of people where they didn't want to be.

45:41 Took a lot of people from where they didn't want to leave.

45:44 After all this time, I can tell when they're not coming back.

45:47 But I'm not the one who chooses these things.

45:49 I just do my job.

45:51 The bus will keep going where it needs to go.

45:53 I don't choose its destinations.

45:55 You choose.

45:56 You don't always realize it.

45:58 Ah, the old call.

46:00 Hey, we're going to get some answers on the call.

46:02 Answer the phone.

46:08 Hello.

46:09 Yeah, it's um it's me.

46:14 Uh I I expected as much.

46:18 I I reached the bus station.

46:21 Yes, I I know where it is.

46:24 Oh, so this is it, huh?

46:31 Here I am.

46:33 It's been a long time, Dad.

46:36 [music] Oh, kindly.

46:46 Oh my god.

46:47 I've [music] been um my brother maybe.

46:49 I've been trying forever to contact you.

46:53 Stavo, [music] who else would it be?

46:56 Did I change that much?

46:57 You've changed a lot, too.

47:00 I always thought we'd go through this together.

47:01 [music] I mean, we already knew this, right?

47:04 That this could happen.

47:05 I thought you'd come when the time arrived.

47:07 Yeah.

47:08 Now, isn't [music] it enough?

47:10 It It'll have to do.

47:11 It doesn't look like German.

47:14 [laughter] I'm tired, [music] Candelaria.

47:15 You know, ever since I got here, I I just couldn't stop thinking about that day.

47:20 That day, it didn't feel like it would have such an impact on the time, did it?

47:25 But it destroyed us.

47:26 I kept thinking about what I did, about the choice [music] I made.

47:29 You know, I had to take a camp to get here.

47:31 Christina lost control of the car last week.

47:33 [music] She hit a tree.

47:36 Really?

47:36 I didn't know that.

47:38 Tried to call you.

47:42 Is she okay?

47:43 She is no scratch on her.

47:46 Car wasn't so [music] lucky.

47:48 I came here in a cab, right?

47:50 But uh going to sound ridiculous.

47:53 You won't believe me.

47:54 And I don't know how long I spent in that cab.

47:57 It seemed like days.

47:59 Days riding around streets I'd never seen before.

48:01 Streets I know I'll never see again.

48:03 [music] Impossible routes.

48:05 Eternal roundabouts.

48:06 The radio spoke to me.

48:08 The cab's radio.

48:09 I went through something similar the last few days.

48:11 You did?

48:12 Wasn't a cab, but yeah.

48:14 H I guess we really [music] are cursed somehow.

48:18 The whole time I kept reliving that day.

48:20 I couldn't do anything.

48:21 I just stared at the two of you like an idiot.

48:24 I should have said something.

48:26 Not even sure if I should have defended [music] you or Dad.

48:30 I should have done something.

48:32 Anything.

48:32 Taxi meter spun at the same speed as my thoughts.

48:35 Apologize for my inaction.

48:37 Candelaria.

48:38 letting things go the way they did.

48:40 I accept [music] your apology, Gustavo.

48:43 Maybe I can get this off my mind now.

48:46 Thank you.

48:48 Well, we need to address [music] the present situation.

48:51 We It's hard to say this.

48:56 There's nothing more that can be done.

48:58 I can't keep him here, and I know you [music] can't either.

49:02 We turn the machines off, Gandelaria.

49:04 I think it's for the best.

49:06 [music] I know.

49:06 I prefer it, but I feel lost.

49:11 I couldn't do this by myself.

49:12 [music] Um, I'm a mess.

49:15 Oh, man.

49:18 Candelaria, sorry.

49:20 I'm uh I spaced out.

49:22 This has been taking its toll on my center, you know,

49:25 to have to turn [music] off the machines to to send him away.

49:29 A duty that should belong to a nature of wars on my shoulders.

49:33 Would you believe it's embarrassing?

49:36 Um, just say it.

49:39 I um [snorts and clears throat] I saw mom here in the hospital.

49:44 I spoke with her with mom.

49:46 I'd never been so scared.

49:48 I thought I was losing my mind.

49:49 She said she spoke to you, too.

49:52 She said you opened the way for her to return.

49:55 So, um, I confess I'm looking forward to ending this.

49:58 Yes.

49:59 So am I.

50:00 [music] Go ahead.

50:02 and um say your goodbyes.

50:05 I'm going to uh go wash my face or [music] something.

50:09 We can give the order together when you're ready.

50:12 Oh[ __] man.

50:14 A [music][ __] Uh Dad, it's been a while.

50:19 This uh isn't how I pictured our goodbye.

50:23 At least you can't chase me off this time.

50:26 [music] Not even if you wanted to.

50:29 I uh I saw mom.

50:33 Actually, I [music] spoke to her.

50:34 I agreed to speak with her once more.

50:37 Try and change a bit how things went.

50:39 Can you believe it?

50:41 I did it.

50:42 We did it.

50:44 Thought you'd [music] like to know.

50:46 I've seen many of my clients in the situation we're in now,

50:50 or something very close to it.

50:53 And now, uh my time has come.

50:55 Huh.

51:03 Damn.

51:10 It's a tough choice.

51:11 Me personally, I want to cry.

51:13 You know, my dad got mad at me for crying.

51:15 I cry and it's so fake a lot of the times.

51:17 But is this a real cry?

51:18 I don't know.

51:19 I don't know the intent behind it.

51:20 Deciding to cry is such an odd choice.

51:22 It should just happen naturally.

51:24 But you know my heart of heart I I I would cry.

51:31 You cried.

51:32 It just ends.

51:33 [laughter] Damn.

51:35 It just ends.

51:36 That's crazy.

51:37 Oh, that's beautiful.

51:39 17 endings.

51:40 Oh my god, that's quite a lot.

51:43 What a beautiful game.

51:44 Visually aesthetic, beautiful.

51:45 [music] The theme of grief is so real.

51:47 Uh, and what I like about these games is that it's the same feeling I get

51:50 when I go to a museum and I I look at a piece for so long.

51:54 And I'm not even trying to like fully understand

51:56 everything that is that is about [music] the piece,

51:58 but more so understand the invotion the emotions

52:02 in which it's trying to invoke in me.

52:03 You know, grief is such a personal thing and how you kind of how you

52:06 kind of combat it and go through it and how you approach it in life.

52:09 Um, to [music] have to address that and talk to it.

52:11 It's not an exciting game.

52:13 It's not horror in a traditional sense, but honestly,

52:16 the horror of having to deal with uh grief

52:19 [music] on your own and and battle it, especially when,

52:21 you know, maybe you're not you don't

52:22 have a great relationship with your loved ones,

52:24 is truly the most psychological horror you could ever be in in real life.

52:28 And I I really appreciate these games cuz I I

52:30 think uh as someone who played COD my [music] entire life,

52:33 having to play a game that like makes me think

52:34 about these things is uh really I don't know the word.

52:37 I don't know the word impactful.

52:38 [music] But, you know,

52:39 I'm also reaching that age right now where and unfortunately

52:41 a lot of older people in my life, you know,

52:43 who have played significant roles are starting to get a lot older and, you know,

52:47 people that I really cared about are starting to, you know,

52:49 it's like a concern if they might pass away.

52:51 And yeah, I don't think I'm ready for that, man.

52:54 You know, I I like even in my own personal life, you know,

52:58 uh I remember there was a funeral of an uh I won't say

53:02 which which person cuz I don't want to I thought I would cry.

53:06 I thought I would like, you know, it would be a big thing.

53:09 And I remember like carrying like the casket and stuff and I was like,

53:13 man, I don't feel anything.

53:14 It's just so weird.

53:15 I don't feel anything about this.

53:16 And I and I felt like, man, am I not human?

53:19 I don't understand why I'm not feeling anything right now.

53:21 But then after the fact, you know,

53:22 when time passes, you start feeling the things.

53:23 You just don't know it yet.

53:24 And your body's your mind is so weird at how it processes things.

53:27 But if you're like me, uh, and you know, as a guy especially,

53:30 it's such a tough thing cuz people don't talk about this stuff.

53:33 uh no one talks about grief or dealing with it.

53:35 Uh and it's hard to feel like uh you know, you can battle it yourself.

53:40 Uh but you know, your friends are there to listen.

53:43 Don't be afraid to tell people.

53:45 Grief is not something you need to go through alone.

53:47 Especially as a guy, you know, we're terrible at talking to each other.

53:50 Women figured this out millennia ago.

53:53 For some reason, we haven't.

53:54 So, talk to people.

53:55 And you are human.

53:56 Just cuz you you might not feel things

53:58 right away doesn't mean you haven't felt them.

53:59 [music] Your brain is just processing.

54:01 Take care of yourself.

54:02 What a great game.

54:02 I did not buy this ticket.

54:03 Shout out to my Brazil devs.

54:05 W Brazil.

54:07 It's a real life bus from Brazil.

54:10 [laughter] W indie devs as they say.

54:13 Go and support them.

54:14 Bye.

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