running on 3 hours of sleep at new york fashion week o_0

0:01 [Music] hello oh hello guys it is 4 a.m.

0:20 I set an alarm felt like three hours after I went

0:24 to sleep I am currently icing my face with matcha to make it

0:27 less puffy it happens to be Wednesday which means that I need

0:31 to film a video which I meant to do you know over

0:37 the past like two days then I've been at Fashion Week so

0:40 I thought I would just wake up bright and early today and do

0:42 it oh so[ __] tired anyways I'm gonna chug this mantra now

0:47 and get filming hey guys [Music] [Music] okay hi holy[ __] so

1:11 yeah this is Karlie Kloss obviously she's a model but she is

1:14 also the founder of Coakley classy which is a free summer camp

1:17 for girls who are interested in learning how to code please forgive

1:20 me in the following Clips if I'm really awkward or like don't

1:22 really know what the[ __] to do with my face I have

1:25 been reblogging photos of Karlie Kloss on my tumblr since like 2011

1:30 and yes I did dig through my actual tumblr to find that photo

1:33 amongst other gems such as this necklace that we all thought was

1:37 cute in 2012 for some reason this gif of Hillary Clinton swerving

1:41 her own husband to kiss Obama on the cheek and this video

1:44 of a man pole dancing while playing jingle bells on a clarinet

1:55 honestly all three of those things are somehow still own brand for me

1:58 hi I'm here with Carly and we're on our way to the Serena

2:02 Williams Show presentation I think it's actually a combination of a talk

2:06 she's talking with Anna Wintour this morning and that'll be really

2:09 interesting I laugh I'm so nervous I was watch me like eat

2:19 this all day long people would just see me like completely embarrass

2:21 myself okay so one question I had for you was um so

2:25 you took time off in the middle of your modeling career

2:27 to go to NYU which i think is amazing it takes a lot

2:30 of courage to step away from something that you feel like you

2:34 just have like such a momentum in I was that decision process like

2:37 and how did you stay true to it you could to journalist

2:40 you know I've been working in this industry as a model since I

2:43 was 15 14 years old really I did my first Teen

2:46 Vogue shoot when I was 14 when I was in eighth grade

2:48 and then when I was in ninth grade my freshman year

2:51 of high school I walked in Calvin Klein for New York Fashion Week

2:54 and that like immediately started this global career and I all

2:59 of a sudden my freshman year like first semester first month of school

3:04 was gone that for three weeks because I got these opportunities one

3:09 after the next just to start this career and walk in runway shows

3:13 in New York Milan Paris and I always juggled my education throughout

3:17 high school and when I graduated high school I wanted to take

3:21 a minute take a year off school fully commit to and like dive

3:25 into building my career and what I kind of realized at a certain

3:30 point is that life is long and I had this gut feeling

3:33 that I wanted to and needed to keep growing and and put

3:37 myself in a traditional college environment like NYU and I wanted

3:41 to experience that even if it meant that I was gonna maybe lose

3:44 momentum in my career because sometimes can be scary to like

3:48 you gonna make a change because you feel like it might stop

3:50 and I think I had enough confidence in myself to know that if

3:55 I wanted to be modeling for 50 years to come that people

4:01 would respect my decision to invest in myself and to go back

4:04 to school and that they would still support me afterwards and also

4:08 I was willing to take that risk that if they didn't support

4:10 me afterwards I'd be okay because I knew I like really genuinely wanted

4:15 to to go back to school and it's not so in addition

4:23 to your work attachment Serena you

4:26 ruined Sabrina mention the investment companies

4:29 that embrace diversity leadership proud 2016

4:32 Atlanta companies were venture back only

4:34 eight percent goes to admit minorities even less [Music] we got advance okay

5:02 so very important thing that's happening today actually has a big photo

5:07 shoot and I was just saying I should give her some pointers

5:10 having your photograph taken it's just not a natural experience and I

5:15 think the best thing you can do is just it sound so cliche

5:18 but just be yourself and feel really confident in your own skin

5:21 the confidence that comes from the inside truly so cliche but that really

5:26 comes through in a photograph for me I know what angles

5:30 I like best of myself which sounds so vain but actually just

5:34 like makes it easier to get a photograph yes ask to see

5:38 a test shot don't feel like you can't ask to see how

5:42 it looks because this is you when you're posing do you know

5:45 in your head what the photo will look like when it comes out

5:48 because I can never tell I have like a sixth sense six

5:52 six cents and so yes I've just been on so many traditional

5:56 kind of photo shoots if I'm on a studio set I know

5:59 the lighting and I know that I'm jumping and I'm holding a bag

6:02 and my jacket is flying and they want the hair to fly

6:05 a certain way hey you've done it so many times we're not

6:08 even seeing the photograph I can tell if my hair was

6:10 in place if my jacket moved if the bags in the right position

6:14 it's weird it's like you'd do anything for 10,000 hours and you

6:19 learn how to be a perfectionist at it what about you can

6:22 you tell when you take a shot when you do a vlog

6:25 if you get the shot in one go oh I might not

6:28 have perfected my sixth sense yet I think I have to work

6:31 on it I think I generally have a sense but I tend

6:34 to assume that my footage is worse than it actually is and then

6:37 I'm like ah this video was horrible like every shot was shaky

6:40 she said not yet knowing that every single clip in this video

6:43 is extremely shaky and then I go in a bit well that's

6:48 also probably are you perfectionist yeah definitely I'm trying to get over

6:52 it are you as well I'm a perfectionist with some things I'm trying

6:55 to get over it because that self-criticism is only destructive you know

7:00 what that you're really good at what you do and why are

7:02 you even without yourself that footage isn't good I didn't you know

7:05 like why do we even do that I don't know if it's like

7:08 a woman thing or if that's a human thing that perfectionism can

7:11 really drive you and has certainly drived me to like push myself

7:15 to be better but also you got to keep it in perspective

7:18 and like I can't let it self-destructed you know yeah for a long

7:22 time I thought that I couldn't be good at my job if

7:24 I wasn't always like Norma's about it and always kind of like

7:28 picking myself apart yeah there's room to be like confident and absolutely

7:32 I don't know I think like we do that all the time

7:42 no brain part but I really want to I was saying and I

7:46 think this comes with age at the ripe old age of 27

7:50 there's a way to be confident and sound in yourself

7:54 and in your abilities without being arrogant I used to have that really nervous

7:58 energy to and I still get it I get a dren illan

8:01 I'm gonna do a run my show tonight oh definitely be nervous

8:04 but I think you have to use that adrenaline and excitement to make

8:08 you be present and to focus you can't allow you to doubt

8:12 yourself I don't know I think that's an age thing you don't

8:15 make sense that totally makes sense in college I was a little

8:17 bit scared of getting older I was like oh these are

8:19 my good years but like in reality you're a better person every year

8:22 and yeah experienced and more confidence I can relate so much because

8:25 I think it's like when you were you know so young do you

8:28 feel like you only have this short window of time to like

8:31 prove to the world what you're capable of but I think that like

8:35 life is long if you want to you're always going to be

8:39 like striving to grow and striving to do interesting cool things and I

8:43 think you have to just like give yourself a little bit

8:46 of slack okay I'm gonna let you enjoy your shoot and I'll see

8:48 you tonight okay okay you tonight oh is this a fashion thing

8:52 none of this is fashion thank you okay but actually it's doing

8:55 now and now I'm actually just making this awkward like this nope

9:03 nevermind and learn you want to get you wanna okay mwah oh okay

9:11 in fashion people do this this is like a thing I need

9:14 translate this I'm still like an air kiss is like it's like

9:17 better than a handshake kind of in between a handshake and a hug

9:20 a hug is very like a commitment okay and then air kiss

9:23 is just like a nice to see you bye hello and then

9:26 also sometimes people do one air kiss these people do too this whole

9:30 language Idol is three there's like an international unspoken language New York

9:34 it's usually just one but you're meeting people for the first time

9:37 so it'll probably be a handshake okay next is when you come

9:39 back I'm sure it'll be in arrogance okay this is the wisdom

9:46 [Music] [Music] got here a little bit early Carly dropped me off

10:09 ladies I don't woman anyways I just realized now that my makeup is

10:16 so rusty unless let's go shoot look how the blind [Music] [Applause]

10:29 [Music] okay so kind of last-minute changes they did not send my outfit

10:37 that I picked out at the fitting yesterday so we're kind

10:39 of having to improvise putting something else together so we have the denim

10:43 skirt not in black up in blue a brawl net so I'll

10:47 show you guys what I bet your help [Music] invisible- this is

11:07 fourth-degree deodorant you'll be expand whiteness

11:10 man like 2.6 out [Music] [Music]

11:32 no he didn't stop a commercial will come at this point and speaking

11:41 of commercials our title what do you want is a natural springboard

11:45 for selling the sponsors product [Music] so far in New York Fashion

12:07 Week I had been to shows inside a literal Cathedral- shout inside

12:11 historic houses but this was perhaps the strangest location of all it

12:15 was in a giant empty airplane hangar it was so dark

12:19 and quiet it felt like being in the womb which is like

12:22 a big-ass womb but also for some reason Nicki Minaj was also

12:25 in [Music] okay I'm gonna mute the actual music that was playing during

12:38 the show because honestly it like gave me anxiety and I didn't

12:42 want to do the same thing to you guys but it was

12:44 that like[ __] heart-wrenching loud ass like so loud you can feel it

12:48 in your body and your body is like vibrating because of the sound

12:52 waves music the entire show there were models appearing at random

12:56 and dancers contorting and at one point they just started like charging

12:59 at each other across the airfield it was intense man honestly the best

13:04 way I can describe it is if you've ever seen the movie

13:06 mother exclamation point spoiler alert but at the end when Jennifer Lawrence

13:11 is like mobbed and the mob[ __] eats her human baby that is

13:15 like the same feeling that I had in watching this show honestly

13:18 I'm not gonna lie like coming out of this show I felt

13:21 the way that I think a lot of people feel about abstract

13:24 art where they're like oh that was so like hashtag deep like

13:28 I don't really understand what it means like it was just kind

13:30 of weird but a full two months later while I was editing

13:36 this video I was reading up on some articles about the show

13:39 and I finally[ __] understood what it meant or at least like

13:43 a small part of what it meant and I was honestly really

13:45 proud of myself because I have been confused about this show for so

13:48 long what the show is supposed to be about is kind

13:50 of our modern-day nostalgia for like the 50s and 60s and these times

13:55 where people dressed in this very like reserved clothing which you can

13:57 see reflected in the designs when in reality those periods that we look

14:01 back on as the good old days came with so much oppression

14:03 for a woman for people of color for gay people and you

14:06 can see that like pain and energy in their movements oh my god

14:10 I sound so[ __] pretentious I sound like one of those film

14:14 school boys who smoke cigarettes and yells at you for not watching

14:17 the Citizen Kane and like every Spielberg movie now if you'll excuse

14:21 me I have a beanie to find some jewel pots to smoke

14:23 and some girls to lightly body shame at a party wait is

14:26 that the new Brockhampton saw [Music] [Applause] is it going yeah you

14:49 just kind of have to like press this a little bit to get

14:51 it to focus is it recording you're going now Ashley do you

14:55 remember when you said you we're gonna just take this Fashion Week

14:57 easy it was a knee-slapper wasn't it what your discoveries in the past

15:04 four days I think that I have discovered I know much

15:07 less about the fashion movement I thought I had known about you

15:11 know styling on like an everyday basis before but there's like this whole

15:14 world of designers and models that I need to get to know

15:18 a lot better to just have like industry knowledge so that's something

15:21 I'm definitely still working on our next Fashion Week I think it

15:25 would make me a lot less nervous if I felt like equipped

15:27 with the information and did like my research beforehand you know where

15:32 do you see the future of fashion I see it starting now

15:38 with I don't to say the tick-tock kids but like that generation

15:41 who never heard of them what's tick-tock they're like mini versions of outfit

15:45 videos that people are filming in their bedroom and I think like

15:48 that movement definitely started on YouTube but I guess we'll see like

15:51 where this generation takes it I've seen so many more people doing

15:55 like little DIYs on their clothing after school thrifting and just having like

16:00 really funky individual style I hope that we see a future

16:03 on YouTube that's more about this like DIY about personality rather than about

16:09 like money and access to designer goods which I think it's already

16:12 moving in that direction what are your plans for tomorrow I literally

16:16 have no plans for tomorrow which is the perfect plan for the models

16:18 I think I'm gonna sleep this boy from LA came to visit

16:21 me so I'm gonna hang out with him and then I just

16:26 no wonder she's so tired anyways I guess that that's the end

16:34 of my Fashion Week oh my god I can sleep now

16:35 let's party the night away now just could use a[ __] drink

16:40 or two [Music] it's an interesting week where there's a lot going

17:19 on I'm like when it comes down to it it is like clothes

17:23 on one part it's like this beautiful like art and it's like

17:27 an incredible way of like self-expression and like I love fashion so much

17:30 but on the other side I think that whole world can breed

17:35 a lot of like like elitism and feeling like I don't know feeling

17:41 self-conscious and feeling like you're not good enough if you're keeping up

17:43 with the trends so I think there's like a good middle ground

17:45 of like really appreciating it and loving it for like the beauty

17:48 of it but also making sure you're not taking it so seriously

17:52 I'm like getting wrapped up in it to the point where kind

17:55 of like consumes you and you have no watch this video me

17:57 like never hiring mad girl but it's like a very like self-indulgent

18:02 week it's also like really fun really cool and I love fashion it's

18:05 like I didn't agree self-expression oh to be honest I nearly deleted

18:12 all of my footage from New York Fashion Week and didn't post

18:15 any of these videos because I felt so disgusted with all of it

18:21 it just felt like so self-indulgent and so opulent and so elitist

18:27 that in the weeks following I was just like[ __] this like

18:31 nobody wants to see me gallivanting around fashion shows talking about designer[

18:35 __] I think like anything in the world the fashion industry has

18:38 two sides to it on one side there is materialism there's this really

18:43 like unhealthy elitist luxury mindset there are unhealthy body standards

18:48 and on the other side there is this like joy for artistic expression

18:52 and this art and emotion behind it and I think for a lot

18:55 of people around the world fashion is this way to like create

18:58 your own character and I think that is what has been

19:01 for me for so long like a way to feel like a person

19:05 that I want to be I don't know I think by default

19:08 I am very cynical and I always want to say like hey if

19:13 this isn't doing the most if this isn't like achieving world peace

19:16 saving people's lives then what's the[ __] point but through editing this vlog

19:21 and just like going back and seeing the excitement on people's faces

19:25 when they were talking about their favorite fashion shows are like inspiration

19:29 behind their designs or even seeing like my own excitement about all

19:33 of this it made me appreciate the space in the world for just

19:37 like aren't an entertainment and even though it might seem superficial stuff

19:42 that just makes people happy and I don't think that's superficial [Music]